Have you ever had that moment in life where you question yourself and your whole existence? Where you ask yourself if this life you have and where you are now is where you want to be? I've been blessed enough to be able to graduate from college with a Management Accounting degree and yet I'm still not in a position where I am working in a job that is related to my field. Quite honestly, I chose Accounting as my course not because I love Math or numbers (Gosh, I hate Math) but because I was thinking logically and I thought that this course would give me a lot of job opportunities in the future. God has presented me with a lot of opportunities already but deep down I know that the Accounting field is really not for me. I've been trying so hard to apply in banks or in any position related to my course and every time, I had to screw it up. Nevertheless, I've been offered jobs in companies where I didn't even apply in and yet I strongly feel its still not where I want to be and I turn them down. What is wrong with me?? Well I guess that would answer my question. At this point of my life, I still don't think I'm where I want myself to be. It just sucks so much that I feel like no one is here to support me and to cheer me up and to inspire me to do what I really love. No one understands me and believes in me and supports me and I just feel like crying! I have to tell you, Accounting is not (never) my first choice. If I had all the freedom and money in the world to choose my course, it would be with no doubt, Fashion Design or any Fashion course. Gosh, I'm so sorry if I am being so dramatic and if I even have any readers out there (which is a scarcity. LOL.), I hope that you'll make sure that you do whatever it is that makes you happy. Don't waste any moment. Make the right decisions in life. If by the time you'll have to go to college, make sure to choose the right course for you! Please!
Sooo...here I am, writing on my blog just to let it all out. I'm confused as hell. You know? you just want to succeed and make your family proud and support them and you've been trying so hard it just feels so frustrating. All I ever wanted is to land a job that I'm a 100% sure I want to be in. It doesn't have to be the perfect job. It just has to make me feel comfy and happy about it. This blogging thing really helps me a lot though. This is also one thing I'd love to do professionally in the future and so I'm taking small steps. Its where I want to express myself and my love for fashion. Geez, I really hope there'd be a lot of fashion jobs in the Philippines. Lol. Anyway, back to blogging, I'm not a very good writer but I guess the trick is just to pour it all out and just say what's on your mind. I don't want this blog to sound so formal like every word and phrase is carefully thought and written. Tsk. And oh, I'm not even sure if my grammar here is spot on (apologies if I do have grammar/spelling issues here that I don't know of) but what the hell, I just want this blog to be casual and fun like a diary or journal. hehe. :) As long as you could understand me, right?
Anywaaaaay, to twist all the negativity on the prior things I've shared with you guys (see first par.), the good news is, I actually got a job at a well-known and huge telecommunications company here in the Philippines. I'm actually very happy about it except for other few things about it but hey, I guess no job is perfect right? This job though is not so official yet. Its because we still haven't done any contract signing yet because our training (which will be held in Manila) schedule is still not final. Its been almost a month of waiting now. Lol. So just enough time for me to contemplate again and argue with my complicated self if I really want to work at this company. lol. What's wrong with me again? Hence, my overly dramatic blog post. I'm still currently waiting for them to update us (new hires) about when we would start. But seriously, I'm tired of waiting and this has got me to all sorts of thinking if I should go look for another job but then again, it would get me all confused again. lol. Maybe I'm just an over thinker. Yeah,I guess that's it. Probably bipolar too. lol. >.< #crazyassbitch
These are my happy faces. lol. Despite everything I'm feeling, I choose to remain positive. Wooot!
Hype this look on lookbook.
These are my happy faces. lol. Despite everything I'm feeling, I choose to remain positive. Wooot!
Hype this look on lookbook.
In other news...
I'm so proud and happy to present the latest pieces of A|S Collection. If you're from Cebu Philippines, please check it out: StreetStyle Rebel: The Urbanized Collection. To all of you guys who may not be from Cebu, I still really hope you could all check out our page and let me know what you think! :)
Here are some of the photos from the shoot w/ my girlfriends. Photos are edited by my friend Samei Yoon. Enjoy!
The blue comfy shirt I'm wearing here is one of the items from our collection. I was assigned with all the styling and my business partner (*wink) was taking the photographs but all in all, we helped each other out with all the functions. haha. To stay true to the theme of our collection, we all went for that grungy feminine look. We made all our models and ourselves wear black boots and snapbacks. Denim was also added into the mix with minimal to no accessories to keep it simple. Hope you love them!
The blue comfy shirt I'm wearing here is one of the items from our collection. I was assigned with all the styling and my business partner (*wink) was taking the photographs but all in all, we helped each other out with all the functions. haha. To stay true to the theme of our collection, we all went for that grungy feminine look. We made all our models and ourselves wear black boots and snapbacks. Denim was also added into the mix with minimal to no accessories to keep it simple. Hope you love them!
Till next time!
xoxo,
Anj
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Janylin boots (borrowed from a friend)
Super cute sporty look. Congrats on your new job. I'm really happy for you :D
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Thank you so much Vale! :) Really really nice to know there's someone out there like you who can relate to me :) and thank you for that advice! Yes, I shall be confident always! God Bless!
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Hi Nava! thank you so much for your nice comment! :) If you really love something then you should go for it! If you think Law is really for you and choosing it makes you happy, then take that path! All you need to do is believe in yourself and believe that you can do it! Trust me,I've had my fair share of regrets in my life and one of them is choosing the wrong course for me. haha. I think there's really no easy road to success. You have to really work hard for it. Trust yourself and trust in God! :))
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ReplyDeleteAbout the 'dramtaic post' as you called it, keep believing girl! I had these moments too! I've always been in love with fashion and cooking and also I love chemistry so much. For all my high school years I was pretty sure about my future: event organizer and maybe opening one of those fancy locales whit novel cousine and so on. Then it was time to decide what college choose and I had a kind of enlightmant, an inner voice said to me that this wasn't my way, and I decided to study to be oncologist, so different isn't it? But everyday when I'm studying hard, I realize that this my life and maybe one day I could save somebody's life, so if you think that fashion will be your future, don't stop trying, one day you'll make it!
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Wow. Thank you so much Samantha! :) You're kind words really inspired me! :) and I'm so so glad some people actually read my blog! especially this very long one! haha. and for that, thank you so much! it really means a lot! your comment made me happy :D and yes, I will keep on trying! :))) xxx
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